Im at work as usual I have a lot on my desk but hey what the hell I feel like blogging.
Im getting sick due to my nasty immigrant of a coworker. She is becoming a pain in the ass. Call me a racist dammit, but if you had to put up with the shit I deal with 5 days a week you would be fed up aswell. Okay she walks around coughing all day in everybodys face. Just yesterday as i was coming around the corner into the office , the bitch had the nerve to be walking an coughing, and mind you not covering her mouth. Mind you she has been sick for dam near 3months. I think chung lee got the bird flu or something cuz... this shit dont make no since. We had our weekly tuesday morning meeting today and i held the door for the females exiting the meetin, when it was her turn to pass through the door i wanted to slam it shut on that flat ass of hers. Im so over and she didnt even say thank you. I dont know what type of mannerism they teach in china but they need to get with the program.
I feel sick.... okay my dumb ass wanted applebees at 10:30 last nite. so I called my best friend "S" and he drove okay back story lol. Before we gort there he had to stop and gert gas lol. He rolled down the window and asked for 5 dollars worth of gas. I was saying to myself got dammit we not gone make it. but it did something for his 4 cylinder. shit not my V8 lol. anyway we get to the restaurant and My fat ass orders 2 chicken quesdilas lmao. By the time i got to the second one I felt a rumble in my stomache but like a true black person I tired to knock them down aswell. which i did anyway lol despite my stomache already in knots and we all know what applebees does to our stomache people lol. Need less to say as i got to my front door I was fumbling to get my keys out and head to the bathroom ,2 seconds longer I would have been the shitty best friend lol...If you missed that post reference "SHITS FUCKED UP".
Im just sick.... of being lonely. Im jealous of my friends relationships, Why am i so picky when it comes to love. Just about 90% of my exs are involved in happy realtionships. Im startn to think im the cause. I just cant seem to find anyone to hold my attention. Im trying to turn over a new leaf. I had to make some changes to my social circle. I love my Shawn,Fuzzy,Jay,Omar,Greg,Reggie,Charles,Stevenetc... If I didnt mention you I already got in contact with you. Nobody can replace them, they are very special to me....! I swear i felt so alone last saturday. I went out to eat by myself and I will never do it again lol. Nobody had time for me. This is why I need a steady shawty. I just dont get it. I make good money...I drive... pay majority of my own bills (live with parents)... I'm a good dude...I dont think im ugly, never been told that. I just wish things fall into place asap. Cuz I dont know how much longer I can take this shit lol. Back to work I go... Thanks for the feedback on my last post. I really appreciated it y'all.
Until Next Time.........
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17 comments:
My friend X, you don't know it yet but you should be happy cause you reached " the transition ".
You know what's goin on ?
It's time for you to move to bigger and better things.
Take it from the master lol, every single time i felt the way you're feeling now it was because i was being given " me " time !
Once in a while, some higher power gives you a chance to work on yourself : run, work out, change the way you eat (Applebee's is cute but ya know.. lol), try to meet new people, and GET TO KNOW THEM (not just physically... lol), open your eyes, try to see what you like about others and what you can learn from them, get all the info you need about that business degree, compare schools, visit campuses, it's time for a CHANGE.
You are NOT lonely.
Mr " unfound self ", it's time to FIND YOURSELF
ummm excuse me Mr. Soldier, leave something for me to say!
I totally agree. I will add that the discovery of "self" is a process that never ends. the better you know yourself, the more confident you will be. I believe that you cannot expect to get to know someone and know that you are compatible without first knowing yourself.
Oh, for future reference, if you wanna talk to me and I don't answer the phone, call back! (especialy if its from a number i don't know) This lets me know someone really wants to talk to me!
Love ya always ma dude!
This issue is the MOST common problem for a black gay male... even more then HIV and AIDS I think.
EVERY SINGLE PERSON YOU KNOW has been through this or will go through it again. We humans are social beings. It happens.
Everyone is right, it is all about knowing who you are.
Think of yourself as a "Brand"... what are you selling? Who is your target audience? What are your benefits? Who have you partnered and associated yourself with? Do you have attractive packaging? Do you have nutritional value? What really is behind the back label in fine print? Have you done substantial advertising?
And
How much are you really worth, I mean really?
You know you can be graphic when you want to. lol
As long as you have true friends, you should never feel lonely. Lover relationships, sometimes, come and go but a good friend will last.
ummm, shawnqt nutritional value? hmmm my mind has taken me afar! :-)
I think the issue is not lying in having true friends, but rather having a relationship wherein they both care and appreciate each other.
i told you i would have gone to applebees with you but u didn't ask me (smile). and tell that heffa to cover her mouth, i was teaching this woman at work how to cover her mouth before i was forced to take a leave. hey if you don't speak up she will never know its a problem.
yea... you gotta tell her to cover her damn mouth!
No you didn't allow a co-worker to ruffle your feathers! Seriously I feel you on that part about the co-worker; there is a dude that I work with that is just plan nasty and unhealthy he coughs and never ever washes his hands before eatting or when returning from the bathroom, I do not even use the breakroom when he is working afraid of catching something. Avoid that person you work with at all cost and keep you something such as a bleach wipe to keep your area sanitized, maybe even leave a box of tissues, sanitizing wipes and a pamplet on: Influenza on her desk.
Why are you feeling so sad? It appears that you have a very decent life/lifestyle, with the exception that you eat the wrong foods and at the wrong times, but thats okay we all tend to do that from time to time. Lonely? Jealous of friends relationships? Exes? Chile Pleeze you should not pay attention to others relationships, and there is no reason to even entertain the thought about exes. Lonely tends to bring us down, but no worries get out and volunteer or do something constructive to take your mind off of your lonliness, especially during the winter when the nights are longer than the days, that can create lonliness for a single person, to much damn time alone. Going out to eat alone, no problem I do it all the time and from time to time others will join me if they think I do not want to eat alone, i have met a couple of nice people during those times.
your right that things will fall in to place sometime soon...when u least expect it...as far as being sick..lay off all that cheese at one sitting...lol...leave the chinese ppl alone....
It's gonna be alright X.
Ugh!! I hate feeling that way...sometimes it just creeps up!
But, I gotta agree with Soldier and Fuzzy...I'm kinda going through the same thing.
;-)
mmmmmmhhhh well u betta teach her some manners quick for you wind up with sars lmao (i am just kidding) and about that applebees that is what applebees will do to you and about the shitty friend please please dont be like him cuz that shit aint cute at all. AT ALL just messey lol
Dis is how I feel sometimes. It seems like nobody has time 43 me , but I buss my ass 4 them. Dats prolly why I am so mean sometimes. LOL. everythin will fall into place 4 u, believe me. Keep ya head up. U will have u a boo and shittin on yo friends in no time...LOL
i don't quite know how to take that! lol
I think we've all been through everything you just said.
I had a chick buy a plane ticket to come see me this past weekend, but she didn't make it. Wanna know why? It wasn't the time. She started acting stupid, and I got sick. Something always gets in the way when you're not sure WHAT'S IN FRONT of you is WHAT'S RIGHT for you.
I want to be in a relationship. I think. But I don't want the hassle of dealing with someone else's differences. I think.
I think you just inspired a blog posting. And thanks for finding the blog I'm doin wit da folks. Help keep me motivated playa!
feel better
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