"Whos Afraid of The Big Bad Wolf"

Whats going on people. Ya boy X is stressing. My dumb ass sister has once again managed to turn my household into disaray yet AGAIN. She is starting to get under my skin AGAIN...I try to make excuses for her. I try to give her opportunitys to grow as a woman but she just doesnt get it. I swear I think she slow. How much can a person take before you blast they ass to smitherines. I keep my mom and dad off her back so they dont sweat her about shit. I mean she has it good, she don't have to pay rent, pay for food, pay a bill, the bitch don't gotta do nothing. All she has to do is go to school and take care of my nephew. She is so dickmatized by this older dude thats scared to come to our house cause me & my dad are going to ice grill him, but so the fuck what ,how you 27yrs old tryna talk to a 19yr old anyway, but thats a different story. So check this.....

I came home around 11:30 pm...just came from shawn house, my brother like you know ya sister not home yet rite. I go to her room to check and she not in there. I'm like well hopefully she will come walking in a few. I went upstairs talked on the phone and carried on the rest of my phone conversation I was having with this lil shorty and i mean short like 5'2 short lol but anyway. I didnt bother to go downstairs to see if my sister was home because my parents already sat down with her 3 weeks prior about her being out all day with the baby and not calling or letting anybody know if she is okay so. The sole purpose for her really staying with us is for the welfare of my nephew and of course her because she is his mother.

So my mom wakes me up due to over sleeping and almost late for work. I walked downstairs to greet her with a smile only to see her looking shit faceted and annoyed so I ask whats wrong and sure enough the reply was..you know your sister didnt come home last nite. My mouth dropped and I just stood there and listen to my mom go on an on about how she told her this and told her that and we just went thru this....you would think she got the hint after your father chewed her ass out last time for this. The baby bottles are in the frigde. I wonder did he eat. Come to find out she told my dad that she was going to one of her girlfriends house to chill and she would be back, only to find out her girlfriend called the house lookn for her ass. Thats when I got upset. Its not good to lie to my parents, its hell to pay especially when it comes to regaining trust. I have tried to be the mediator and cut her slack and let her adjust to her new enviornment but enough is enough. So today after work I have to prepare myself for this long drawn out conversation. Im going to hate to do this ,but I gotta let her have it 4real this time because you will not give me your ass to kiss. We took you in, clothed you, fed you and gave you money and you cant even follow simple rules....just becasuse she is 19 with a baby doesnt make her grown.

I'm getting annoyed typing this shit right now. What should I do people?, because obviously this girl dosen't believe shit stink....Whos Afraid of the big bad wolf?...because obviously this chick isnt.....!

My dad always told me if you wanna stay out late and be grown and not let anybody know were you at...DONT COME HOME, TAKE YO ASS BACK TO WERE YOU CAME FROM AND I'LL SEE YOU TOMOR. I really hope she gets her act together before its too late.



Until next time.......

"Can You Keep A Secret"

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

I'm faced with these issues and its hard for me to process them at times.
Why am I an outlet for people? Everybody just feels the need to tell me their business
Whether good or bad. I don't think I can handle the shit that comes my way.
I view people differently then others. I know deep dark secrets, I know what lies beaneth.
I wish I didnt know what I know. I wish I was in the dark like everybody else.
My heart and soul can't take it anymore. I feel like sometimes Im going to blow.
I don't want to be apart of the problem. I wanna be a part of the solution.
I'm not doing any good by harboring these secrets. Its eating me up inside.
At nite I cry. Asking GOD why? Sometimes you shouldnt go searching. I guess Its better to not know
Over time I'll get over it ,but it still remains that I know, to much and Im ashamed.
I value trust but I also value honesty.

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

These things that run through threw my mind. I wish I could go back and time.
I wish I could erase things from my mind. I wish I could just wave that magic wand.
I know what I know and I have to accept it. I was vowed to secretecy.
The saying goes whats done in the dark will come to the light. Im not ready to come out of hiding.
I like being in the dark were the light is dim. Im like a fuse ready to go out. Sometimes I feel used. I think I should start charging for my services. Shit I feel my time is worth it.
When theres nobody to turn too im always your go to. I try to keep a straight face.
I do my damnest to give advice. I try my hardest to not put up a fight. I said at nite I cry.
Asking GOD why? Sometimes you shouldn't go searching. I guess its better to not know. Overtime I'll get over it, but it still remains that I know, to much and im ashamed. I value trust but I also value honesty.

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

Can you keep a secret?


Until till next time..............

X

"Week/Weekend Wrap-up"

Hey people. Hows it going. Ya boy X just checking in to see whats good. I told you I was gone post about something we all are lacking in our lives but I eighty-sixed that idea. I didnt feel like getting all emotional and shit on my blog. You will never get that satisfaction lol. I was gone blog about being annoyed, but I not gone even go that route. So here it goes......

I guess ill just start by saying that my boy shawn and I along with our fellow bloggers have something coming up thats in the works , So be on the look out. We are going to put alot into this project and we hope that you enjoy what we are going to bring to the table. So pull up a chair an be entertained. Shawn is trying to get me to step out the box and be more creative and change my image which I am alledgedly portrayed to be " A Self Hating Homo....hilfucknlarious.

This weekend a couple of friends of mine are going to FIRE ISLAND and its my first time going. I hope this shit is poppn cuz Im already mad I have to drive far as hell to get to the dam place then hop my black ass on a ferry to get on the dam island. (Mind you carrying a dam cooler, beach shit, etc) Oh did I mention pay for parking, gas and its $15 just to ride the dam ferry, Hell this shit betta be worth it. All I wanna see is naked bodys. I heard this beach is suppose to be nude. Y'all know I love going to nudes beaches, Nothing like being in my birthday suit LOL. I perfer a nude beach anyday then going to a regular beach. I feel so confined to my dam clothes.

I should have my new sidekick on monday, remember I was telling y'all about my lil ordeal with t-moile in my last post. Yeah they finally received the package and I was sure as hell on the phone with them at 7am talkn to a sales rep explaining my sob story for the fuckn umpteenth time lol. Its almost time to leave work (12:30pm). I figured I'd get my blog on before I dipped off and carry on the rest of my day. I just wanna thank all who read my blog and comment. It's much appreciated.



Have A Good Weekend

Until Next Time............

X

"T.G.I.F"

Thanks for the comments. Much appreciated. Happy Friday People. I was gone post about something im lacking in my life today , Im pretty sure alot of us are feeling the same way, but i'll post it tuesday. I hope you enjoy the track I put up on my blog. It's my FRIDAY ANTHEM.

R-Kellys - Thanks God It Friday

I call my self ordering the new sidekick yesterday, Shawn suggested I get it so I went on T-mobiles website to order it. I completed the updgrade only to realize after I done already excepted the new 2 year aggreement thaat I selected the Sidekick Slide not the Sidekick 2008. I was pissed I immediately called Tmobile to make the change. They gave me this crazy excuse and told me they could cancel it but its not a gurantee that the phone still wouldnt ship. If it did I have to ship it back to them then, once they received it , then they can issue me the right phone. I was disgusted. She told me she couldn't done anything since the order hasnt been put through yet and told my black ass to call back tomorrow so they can do a system overide, dam losers. All I want is my dam sidekick and this time I'm putting insurance on this one. I've came to realize there screens aren't fall proof lol. I fell on that bitch 2 months ago and the screen was all types of broke lol. How I fell on it I will not say lol. I never have this problem with sprint. I think Tmobile has to go lol. I dont like there serviecs, but I love my TREO 750 lol, Its all about the touch screen baby lol.


Today I get off at 12:30 (Gotta love summer hours), just gone go home an chill till it's time to go out later on tonite.

Saturday, My people wanna have a picnic in the park, due to events in the city being canceled, then later on that night going to see Joe Buddens perform his new track Touch & Go (See link for track) at a chill spot I go to once in a while.

Sunday, probaly go to my boy Omar house have drinks and chill.

What are some of your weekend plans?

As Always ....Be safe and Im Out

X