Where Should I Start?

Let see shall we ...ummmm lately I have just been stressing man. Seriously you all know from my previous post that I sum times struggle with my sexuality but now the shit has just come full circle. Lately the female I have been talking to is starting to show me more and more affection and Im starting get more and more annoyed. lol I mean I really get upset to the point that I dont wanna be bothered. Its bad enough she calls me at work at least 2xs a day then wants to chill after work and that takes away from talking to my boyfriend when I get home because me and her wind up chilln till like 11 or 12am. I know trying to juggle the 2 is wrong but I have a good ass dude that understands my situation and allows me too carry on this way. I know some of yall are reading this post like WTF..Yes my dude knows I talk to ol gurl and was willing to take on the obstacle when he met me. I have been trying to slowly break it off with her for about 2 weeks now but the last convo I had with her telln her we should just be friends..Shorty told me I should rethink my answer...What is a man to do any advice for a brother???

Now on to my boyfriend...lately we havent been seeing eye to eye...I dont see him and he doesnt see me. We have been starting to question our love for each other. His love hasn't changed but lately I have been giving him doubt mine has. I'm trying to hold on to what little we have and make it work. He's the perfect dude, the most understanding person you could ever come to know. Its just lately I haven't been communicating with him...He feels like I leave him in the dark about stuff..I dont mean to do it on purpose...ughhhh nobody said relationships were easy...I guess ill take the blame for this one..sighhh

Moving on WHY can't I be happy...I tend to wanna be misserable sometimes or want a lot of drama to go on in my life....I know its crazy right???!! but alot of the situations that are occuring in my life right now, my dumb ass could of avoided the moment they arrised...I have been listening to Jazmine Sullivan lately and that chick can write. Lions,Tigers and Bears is speaking to a nigga werd up...

Next...I plan on moving out in June..good rite??? NOT. the catch is me and my cousin made plans to move in with each other a while ago..My cousin is you can say out to my family..but he has never admited it to certain people...I know when I tell my parents that im moving in with him Its going to raise some eyebrows...Im preping myself for the speech that im going to receive. The who,what,when,why and how questions. Im scared of being accepted by my parents..I still have time to back out of the situation to save face..My friends tell me all the time that onces you get out on your own and start paying your own bills that all that changes and you tend to not care about what people think. I hope that applies to me. Im startn to lean more towards dudes anyway...but until I cross that bridge ill just stick to the norm.

I have a question people....answer truthfully. I know I have male and female readers.

Do you trust your lover/wife/husband/significant other? Whether yes or no what makes him or her trust/untrustworthy?

Whats the 411?

What It do blogg family....I know a nigga has been away for a minute. Trust me ya boy has been thru some shit and is experiencing some shit. I have been commenting on some of y'alls blogs..hopefully today I can play catch-up..ATL was kewl but I would never do it again..I have never seen so many drag queens in 1 mall (Lenox Mall). Im sorry ATL dudes..I see why the DL 1's stay in hiding and are hard to find cuz the shit you see walking around is so fuckn obvious lol and a hot ass mess..Shot out to Norris. I see you punk. I will be updating you guys on my life thus far....Some changes and some shit that is still ongoing. I'm trying to develope a new style of writing. Y'all know I like to curse, so that wont change much lol but I will be writing more meaningful post so you guys can better understand my point of views and how a nigga feel from day to day. Ya dig.

Happy Valentines Day, Congrats Mr Obama (I can't wait to see my new paycheck LOL).

Go pick up the new Bobby V CD..FIREEEE