"Its Wednesday...........This Shit Is Random"

I just dont know sometimes lol. Am I the only one that doesnt know if there coming or going? lol Its like everyday I wake up get in my car. Come to a place that I call work. Get there only to socialize with people I really have no interest in conversating with. To listen to people bitch an moan over stupid shit. Leave from work then go threw wateva else I had on my agenda for the day. Then back to the place I call home. I swear I live in my car. I drive more then I sleep. I dont think getting up an leaving out the house at 7am to return back home by 10:30- 11pm is healthy.

I'm trying this new diet. Okay not diet. You can say that I exercise more then I eat. Yea I know real stupid. Hey... I dont wanna end up like my father. This guy is gone tell me you can't run from it. Its in your genes to be big. I looked at him an said yea okay, not I sir. I mean theres nothing wrong with being fat. Its just not my foretay. Especially in this lifestyle that I live nobody want somebody with too much or too little. Everyone has a preference so dont feed me the whole come as you are... they have to love you for you bullshit. Dont beat me in the head. I ran around the track the day before yesterday an it felt so good. I havent ran like that since high school.

People its tax season an im ready to collect. lol UNCLE SAM owes me lol. Social Security, Fica...etc I want it all. Im not going to spend it though im going to let it sit in the bank an chill. I been maintaining with my regular income so why splurge now, yo u feel me. I suggest you y'all do the same. The goverment is expecting you to give it all back. Dont be no fool lol.

Tonight my agenda is to pick up my cuzn from work and take my her to the dam mall,go see my friend (you know who you are), then leave there go see my other 2 best friends... were going out to eat (APPLEBEES).(wish me luck lmao). Then back to that place I call home. I wont be getting to sleep until 12am. Then yippeeee do it all over again. I'm Exhausted

I couldn't help but blog before the month was out. Im trying to post more then twice a month.



Until next time..............

I Got A Raise.....Should I Apologize....Friend....??

I'm so happy today. I just wanted to share my good news.
Yesterday I was called into a meeting with my Supervisor & My Director were they
discussed how much of a good job I am doing etc... Then the moment I been waiting for since the beginning of the New Year lol. I learn my new salary an my new goals set for me to accomplish during the course of this business year. Yayyy for me.

I am currently trying to raise the bar for myself. Every year brings new things and I'm going milk it for what its worth lol.

I have been having this issue with someone for about 2 months now. I think its time that I apologize for neglecting him for so long an tell him the real reason why I have become so distant. When he needed me the most i turned my back on him, only becasue he gave me his own ass to kiss. Now I'm wondering should I have did that an prolonged the situation. Now all I can do Is say sorry and hope the apology sounds sincere. I know he's hurting inside and needs to talk to me but i dismiss him as always because of reason im not stating for the whole world to read. Im an adult and im going to act like one and call him later on so we can go out to eat an talk over dinner etc....

Okay I have this friend (i think is my friend) I dont know whats his deal with me. One minute I think we cool then one day he throws me hella shade. Im confused am I ya peoples or am I just a name you know. I think this dude is a kewl kat an I wish he would open up to me more and talk to me more but hey I guess for the time being ill just take what I can get. I tried reaching out but no one was there to receive on the other end so hey whats a guy to do. I can't make everybody like me.

Until Next Time.............

I have alot on my mind this morning LOL

"Im Getting Sick.....I Feel Sick.....Im Just Sick......"

Im at work as usual I have a lot on my desk but hey what the hell I feel like blogging.

Im getting sick due to my nasty immigrant of a coworker. She is becoming a pain in the ass. Call me a racist dammit, but if you had to put up with the shit I deal with 5 days a week you would be fed up aswell. Okay she walks around coughing all day in everybodys face. Just yesterday as i was coming around the corner into the office , the bitch had the nerve to be walking an coughing, and mind you not covering her mouth. Mind you she has been sick for dam near 3months. I think chung lee got the bird flu or something cuz... this shit dont make no since. We had our weekly tuesday morning meeting today and i held the door for the females exiting the meetin, when it was her turn to pass through the door i wanted to slam it shut on that flat ass of hers. Im so over and she didnt even say thank you. I dont know what type of mannerism they teach in china but they need to get with the program.

I feel sick.... okay my dumb ass wanted applebees at 10:30 last nite. so I called my best friend "S" and he drove okay back story lol. Before we gort there he had to stop and gert gas lol. He rolled down the window and asked for 5 dollars worth of gas. I was saying to myself got dammit we not gone make it. but it did something for his 4 cylinder. shit not my V8 lol. anyway we get to the restaurant and My fat ass orders 2 chicken quesdilas lmao. By the time i got to the second one I felt a rumble in my stomache but like a true black person I tired to knock them down aswell. which i did anyway lol despite my stomache already in knots and we all know what applebees does to our stomache people lol. Need less to say as i got to my front door I was fumbling to get my keys out and head to the bathroom ,2 seconds longer I would have been the shitty best friend lol...If you missed that post reference "SHITS FUCKED UP".

Im just sick.... of being lonely. Im jealous of my friends relationships, Why am i so picky when it comes to love. Just about 90% of my exs are involved in happy realtionships. Im startn to think im the cause. I just cant seem to find anyone to hold my attention. Im trying to turn over a new leaf. I had to make some changes to my social circle. I love my Shawn,Fuzzy,Jay,Omar,Greg,Reggie,Charles,Stevenetc... If I didnt mention you I already got in contact with you. Nobody can replace them, they are very special to me....! I swear i felt so alone last saturday. I went out to eat by myself and I will never do it again lol. Nobody had time for me. This is why I need a steady shawty. I just dont get it. I make good money...I drive... pay majority of my own bills (live with parents)... I'm a good dude...I dont think im ugly, never been told that. I just wish things fall into place asap. Cuz I dont know how much longer I can take this shit lol. Back to work I go... Thanks for the feedback on my last post. I really appreciated it y'all.

Until Next Time.........

"THURSDAY BLUES (Reason Unknown)"

I'm feeling a lil down today. Reason unknown. Don't really feel like talkn to anyone by text, email, or by phone. I just need to be alone. When will I come out of hybernation I dont even know. Peace please come among me. I feel so helpless. My soul is turning black. My heart has hardened. My body is changing i feel like a butterfly emerging from a cocoon. Im happy now, sad later. Its getting dark. Im not scared. Hopefully tommorrow ill see the light. I live in a world of freedom but why am I so ashamed. I have nice things, I have someone who really love me. Why am I crying..... Why am I crying..... I ask myself, hold back that feeling. Just let go. Im happy again, now im sad. Fuck it now im mad.

I'm feeling a lil down today. Reason Unknown.

Happy New Year

Hello folks, its that time again time to set your goals for the new year. Time to get rid of alot of old habits. Do away with all the negative energy that causes you so much confusion. Its about to be "2008" stop being depressed and saying you cant do it, I say if there is a will there is definetly a way. I have made a lil list below of things for me not to repeat in 2008.



1. I will no longer lend out money to broke ass people.

2. I will no longer extend myself to others that take advantage of me and my niceness.

3. I will stop jerking off everyday of the week. (even though i heard its health, anyway).

4. If I start to have a fag moment in order to regain my masculinity I have instructed my friends to slap the shit outta me.

5. I will no longer be a victim to 500 dollar cell phone bills a month.

6. I will try to establish more of a bond with my biological mom. ugh

7. I will refrain from being a hoe an having one night stands.(sure gonna miss those latenite nuts)

8. I will no longer jerk off in the employee bathroom at work.

9. I will attempt to go back to school and get my degree in business.

10. I will try to be a better friend and not neglect the people who are in my life.

11. LASTLY but not least I refuse to fuck with anybody I dealt with over the past few years.



What are you goals for the NEW YEAR?



BYE-BYE "07" and HELLO "08"

"My Big Brother"

My Big Brother

When ever I needed advice.
You gave it to me straight.
You never bit your tougne
What ever you thought i needed to hear at that moment
You made sure I hearded it an listened.
Your sarcasism is so geniune.
I miss my drinking buddy.
I miss those early morning texts from you
"Whats up playboi" , "Have a good day X".
I'd talk to you on your way home from work while you sitting in traffic.
I got you on my mind playboi.
You are in my prayers.
I came to see you yesterday,
I couldnt stay long,
I couldnt bare the pain.
Seeing you like that hurt my heart,
I shoulda known something was wrong from the start.
You were away from us far to long
I wish it was something I could do
I cant stand the thought of losing you too
I know everything is going to be fine
You are a beam of light
You still have so much more time to shine
I haven't known you for very long,
but in a years time I got close to you
The big brother I never had
Just wanted to let you know
I watched the game last nite.
Cowboys lost but they put up a fight.
I thought about you the whole game
It just didnt feel the same
I looked at my phone wanting to text you
But what was the point no reply to look forward too.
I miss you. Can't wait to see you soon.

"Everyone please take a moment to send out your prayers to our friend Jay."

GO COWBOYS!!!!!!!!

What's The 411?????

Hello blogworld!!! I know i havent been blogging lately. I have been in my own lil world dealing with my normal drama. lmao. Okay I left off last when i was telling you my moms job situation, the mortgage situation an my brother...... etc. Okay now the story unfolds. Most of my friends know this but i feel like blogging about it so here it goes.

My sister (18) and my 2month old nephew are now staying with me an my family. It is starting to be hell. I mean i gave her my bed to sleep on, my tv to watch, and my room to make her stay a lil more pleasant (however long that will be). Okay now im thinking to my self after thata was ll said an done like dam were am i going to sleep lol. so yeah im now sleeping on a hard ass floor in my lil brothers room. Every nite i put down a comforter and i made a makeshift pillow being that my sister has my bed (pillow included) im using the back of my lil brothers elmo chair and a sheet to prop it up under my head. A nigga back is hurting my theighs falls asleep from time to time. I havent seen a good nite sleep in a week and a half. I love my sister an all but sumtnns gotta give.

My thanksgiving sucked. My aunt played everybody, she pull a BYOB (bring you own beer). I was so over it lol. I had to buy my own liquor this year. I dared someone to touch my vsop or my miller chill. Am I advertising rite now lol ( i think i need to get paid for this lol) anyway. Yea black people sure do know how to mess up a family function. My lil 12yr old cuzn told me she lost her virginity over the summer i was in shock. SO now she keeps insisting that she give me details lol. Ewwwwlll. Talking bout your my older cuzn you should want me to tell you. I said lil gurl get outta my face lol. Pulled a MADEA on her lol. Everybody ate all the food i got one plate an was very disappointed. Oh yeah my aunt makes her famous sweet potato pies every year and she usually gives me one. You know this trick had the nerve to charge me 5 dollsrs this year. lol

Family and Friends, Okay Family, this was funny over the weekend i was at my friend shawns house he ahd a lil get together and i notice this dude looked very familar and i saw him at shawns house before but couldnt put my finger on it. I approached him i told him he looked familar and he realized i did too. He started running down family names turns out this nigga my cuzn i was in shock cuz i would never though he was gay. He was always quite growing up. Its like everytime i turn around someone in my family is "FAMILY' lol. Friends , im thinking maybe i wanna take a break from the dating scene because everybody that wants to talk to me i dont see as dating material either we've been kewl for years an nothing never poped off or we have been toegther an i dont wanna go down that road again. I think we would be better off as just being friends.

My so called friend has done it again, He has managed to get under my skin once again. I get a call on Thanksgiving mornig from my ex ( who by the way i have there name on my chest) telling me outta respect he wanted to tell me that he met up with my friend on myspace or wateva an they exchange numbers after they realized who each other was continued to talk. (how shady is that). So i blacked on him. Then i proceeded to call my alledged best friend an had words then hung up. Im fed up with the bullshit.

Okay I know its not my place but, If you had a friend thats about 25yrs old constantly talking to high school students, wouldnt you consider him/her to be a pedaphile. I have a friend that loves having relations with underage people his recent victim just turned 17 and catch this the 17 yr fucked him lol. now how crazy is that. I have a lil brother his age. I just dont understand. I know when i was that age i was going for the older people but as i got older i realized why some dudes wouldnt mess with me cause of my age. I try to tell him that its not rite and he should find someone around his own age. I just dont know about hims sometimes.

I THOUGHT THIS WAS SO FUNNY!!! (THIS IS A MUST READ)

A source told me that several R&B female artists came together and were
planning to kidnap Beyonce at the MTV Video Music Awards. Several of
these artists met to go over their plan. Here is an excerpt from that
meeting:

Ashanti : I would like to call to order this meeting of FHAB, Famous
Haters Against Beyonce. Is everyone here? Amerie?

Amerie: Here.

Ashanti : Janet?

Janet: Here.

Ashanti : KeKe Wyatt

KeKe: Here, and I can sing better than Beyonce.

Ashanti : Ok, that's good to know even though nobody asked you.

Ashanti : Has anybody seen Mya?

Amerie: Umm, her cell phone was cut off, and the manager at Target says
she no longer works there.

Ashanti : Jennifer Hudson, why are you here? You have talent!

Jennifer: I heard there was cake.

KeKe: I can cut it for you. I can cut cake BETTER THAN BEYONCE!

Ashanti : Thank you KeKe. After you cut the cake please put the knife
back where you found it.

Ashanti : As we all know, Beyonce is continuing to sh*t on us on a daily
basis. I was suppose to have the single of the summer with "Switch" and
now that nobody cares about it I have to pretend that it was just a buzz
single. I don't even know when my album is coming out. Amerie's album
has been pushed back again, and Mya's album may not come out at all.
Beyonce's unborn children's albums have release dates but we can't get
ours released! SHE MUST BE STOPPED! All of our plans to get rid of
Beyonce have failed.

Janet: I honestly didn't think she would last this long. When she
performed at the Super Bowl, I took my titty out and shook it around a
little hoping it would steal all the attention away from her.

Ashanti : And what happened?

Janet: That didn't work out quite the way I thought it would...

Amerie: Yes, I put Vaseline on the bottom of her shoes at her Orlando
show, and she did slip and fall but that heffa got right back up and
started spinning and rotating that wig. I don't even think she's human.
She's
evil!
PURE EVIL! She must be stopped!

Ashanti : OK, as we know the MTV awards are coming up. None of us have
sold an album since 2002, so Jennifer you are the only person who has
been invited to the show so we need your help with this plan.

Jennifer: Do I get cake?

Ashanti : Nevermind all that. At around 7PM Beyonce will arrive. At
around 8PM, Beyonce will head backstage to meanmug Rhianna. At 8:05PM we
need you to lure her out in the parking lot with a pork chop and cheese
sandwich, me and Amerie will sneak up and tie her up, Imma see if I can
borrow my mom's Astrovan, and we will put her in the back and knock her
out. While she's passed out we will drop her off in the middle of the
desert in Saudi Arabia. Assuming she doesn't get too frisky with the
camels, I'm estimating that it will take her about a month to escape.
During this time we will try to release our albums without her upstaging
us. We have 3 release dates in October since Alicia Keys is coming on
the 23rd and will probably sh*t on us too. I will take October 9. Ok,
Who wants Ocotber 16?

Janet: I want Ocotber 16.

Amerie: Why do you get October 16?

Janet: Excuse me, I did Rhythm Nation, OK! My brother did Thriller! I am
a legend dammit! I am a Jackson ! And now I have to sleep with a Midget
Monkeyman just to stay relevant! I am 41 years old! I AM TOO DAMN OLD TO
BE f**king FOR TRACKS!!!

Ashanti : Ok, Janet, calm down. Have some cake.

Jennifer: NO! MY CAKE! (slaps Janet)

Ashanti : Jennifer that cake was for everybody! See this is why we can't
even get our albums released. We're too busy arguing, fighting, eating,
and stabbing to get anything accomplished. And Beyonce is still sh*tting
on us. We need to focus.

(TO BE CONTINUED...)

Thanks for reading and God Bless.

Until Next Time..........................