"1st Day Back To Work and The Day After"

Wat up. Im back to work and I'm just so fuckn full of joy. Can you tell how happy I am just by reading that 1st line?

I'm actually kinda glad to be back to work. I got tired of sitting around the house. Trying to plan my every move. It started to get...how should I say...ummmm extra boring. LOL. I got up, took a shower. I headed to either shawn or my boy stevens.

I had a good birthday after all. I had a Party at my house with the fam. Got drunk as hell on a sunday, Then had a party at shawns house on a monday, once again drunk as hell. Thanks you Shawn and Omar for making my own Liquor Line. Ladies and Gentlemen....I give you Promiscous Liquors lol. I'll post the bottle later. Special thanks to my Bighead. Now my fitted game is really up there LOL but, I liked both parties equally. I liked the party at my house because, I got this chick number that work with my cousin. Supposedly I was in the basement with her and I winded up with my tougne all in her tities. I dont know how much truth is to that but, I know I woke up in the basement lol. I do rememeber saying good bye to one of my females friends and she refreshed my memory saying she pulled my dick out when I came to the car. Alcohol is the devil I tell you.

It feels so good to be loved on so many levels...........

I started this post yesterday right before I left work, but I was too tired and my 1st day back drained me. All I wanted to do was go the hell home and get in my bed and have a cocktail. Nothing like a lil pick me up from a hard days work.

Lately, I have been noticing a change in my eating habits. I have actually been eating less. Like I still get the urge to eat food, but I cant seem to finish a simple dam sandwich. Like Friday me and the crew went to applebees last friday and got food to go, after sitting at the bar and downing 3 shots (A Kamakazee, Lemon Drop Shot and SoCo). I ate my food which only consisted of a Chicken Quesadilla. Which did not feel me up at all. It was like 6 or 7 lil ass triangles. They jipped my ass on the tortilla. LOL. I ate my food and Omars. I still was hungry. We then went to a so called house party, which basically was a dam SMOKE OUT. I stil was hungry might I add. We stopped at Mc D's before returning to shawns. But the next day I didnt eat till like 11pm when it was time to got to fuzzys house party. I couldn't believe I went all day without eating and it didnt bother me one bit. I'm a big a growing boy. This just isn't possible LOL. I guess I'll take this as a blessing. I truly have see a change in my body size. My stomach is starting to pull together. My chest is starting to tightn back up. Thanks to Omar for getting me those PERFECT PUSH-UPS. Thanks O.

I have a date on thursday and I told ol gurl I would cook for her. I need some suggestions on what I should make. Something simple and not a lot of effort to prepare. Darius this were I need you to come to the rescue pimpn. Also, how long should you wait when trying to kick it with someone to put all the cards on the table? (This is for a frined, Not me LOL)

I made a new friend and I wanna see how loyal and honest of a person he is going to be.


Thanks All for the well wishes. This Bday was definetly better then last.

PS...Nobody Not Really and Acoustic Soul...i'll try to blog more then once a week. LMAO

Until next time........................

Go cope NE-YO's new album "The Year of The Gentleman". Its FIREEEEEEE!!!!!!

"Happy Birthday Me or Not"

Hello Bloggworld.

I hope all is well. It's friday and Im kinda excited but kinda not. Let me explain. First off I will be 22 on the 22nd, which is this coming monday. I dont know how to feel. I should be happy that Im getting another year older and a lil wiser ,but I don't know. All my friends keep telling me im old. Get this, one of my boys even said i look like Im pushing 30. His ass is only 23. I was annoyed and a lil hurt that he would say that, Knowing I take things to heart. I quickly dismissed him. My mom said I'm having an early midlife crisis. I was like what the hell. My lil brother even called me old and I'm like bitch im only 4yrs older then you. LOL. I guess I was so use to being the baby of the "crew", now I'm really starting to become of age and it fuckn with my mental. Just a lil bit. Before you know it ill be 25 (A quarter of a century ughhh) LMAO.

This is the first time in my life I do not know what I want to do for my birthday. I know I wanna get drunk, but WHERE lol. I been going to bars & clubs since I was 16yrs old. Had my first beer at age 10, thanks to my uncle. I am bugging cuz everybody keep askn me what am I going to do for my birthday and I give the same answer every dam time. Which is I DONT KNOW YET or I'LL GET BACK TO YOU. lol. Well now has come to deceide and my black ass dont even have a clue. I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. Why am I making things so difficult. My problem is Im trying to accomodate everybodys schedule, Whats a party when you cant share it with the people you love and care about. I'm trying to balance my friends and family. Gay and Straight. Its the fuckn worse. If only I could bring them altogether in one mixing bowl but HA HA HA that is definetly outta the question. Who knows...what the nite will bring. Shawn and I are suppose to be going to a bday party in NYC tonite at the Trump Plaza. If you in the NYC area hit me up for info on the gmail.

I hope I have a good birthday......(sigh)...HAPPY BIRTHDAY ME I GUESS....

TGIF people....Until next time.......................

"Fantasize"

Thinking, Thinking, Thinking...what should I blog about today. Hmmmm


I'm textn you rite now. I'm smiling like crazy.
We both at work. Hoping this day goes by fast.
I'm sipping my morning coffee. I'm feeling kinda lazy.
When I woke up, I saw a text from you that read "Good Morning".
I replied the same. I got dress and off to work I went.
I need to get sum work done. But you keep coming with the conversation.
I rather be at home playing playstation, on the phone with you.
A lil me and you time, just shootn the breeze.
You keep me on my toes. I'll guess i'll see how the story unfolds.
Your the hershey and im the kiss.
Dam I wish I could drink from your cup of Swiss-Mis.
The emotions running wild inside, my body.
I'm haboring inside. I wanna let go. I need to release.
Before I overflow, Hot lava and streams.
You always were my kind of freak.
I'm like a cat in heat. Im clawing at the bed.
Dam I wish it was you instead.
Wheww look at the time. This rhyme has got to come to an end.
If I write anymore. I think i'll wet the floor.
It's time to stop dreaming
Hide this hard dick between my thieghs
It's all my fault, All this derrived from a simple text
What a suprise now i want sex.
I guess I'll just fantasize.


Until next time.......................


Enjoy your weekend. TGIF..........

"Random Rant"

Whats good people. I'm just gone randomly say shit for the next 10 mins.
So yeah my nephew got real sick the other day, his chest was conjested, he had a fever of 103, He was wheezing bad and was thrown up out his mouth and nose. My lil man all fucked up. So I took him to the emergency room..ughhh. I thought when you rush someone to the fuckn emergency room especially a baby that they would take the patient in immediately. Ummm no guess again. When I tell you I was pissed. I was furious...we got there at like 9pm the doctor didnt see him until about 11pm. Then they ran all kinds of test and stuff. I felt so bad for lil man cuz they had to take a urine sample and they stuck one of those tubes in his ....and I felt for him lol but moving on. He stopped wheezing so hard, and they stablized him. We didnt get back home till like 6:30 that morning. I called out of work thinkn I was gone get some rest but nope that didnt happen.

I laid down for 30mins an got rite back up to take my sis to the Welfar Office. Ughhhh...How I hate going to that place. I thought about putting my sis an my nephew on my insurance but that is just too much responiblity for me to endure. Im already pissed at the system an how slowed they are taking to give my sis (19yrs old) assistance. Moving on.. It was full of ghetto ass people with 50 million babys....I wanted to slap the shit out this lil girl yelln in the back of me. I was lookn at her mother like tell this bitch to shut up...shit lol. I was listeing to the ghetto ass names that were being called and this one name stood out...the chick name was TARZANA...that bitch looked like a fuckn TARZAN lmao...I was so happy to get out of there. Why do people stay on WELFARE there entire dam life. Its designed to assist not to be a fuckn crutch. Its sad because I work hard for the things that I have and a chick with 3 kids on walfare can get a house thru section 8, work at walmart, and have a brand new HONDA. I'm sayig what the fuck am I doing WRONG. I must have the game fucked up lol

Anyway I ran some errands for my grandmother. Did I mention that a nigga was still lacking sleep. I was bugging out y'all werd up. I dont know what the hell my body was running off of. I filled my nephew presription ....wheww due to my sisters Medicaid not kick in yet, who had to lend a helping hand once again ...of course UNLCE FUCKN X....Which cost me more then I intended to spend. He needed over $200 in meds and I cant let my lil man suffer so I just sucked it up and bought it. I swear he's my son an not my sisters lol. I do so much for that boy, but okay back to work I go. I told you this post was random.

Tonight we going to Applebees an after we going to O's for drinks. Today is payday an Im loving it.

TGIF people!!!!!! Its the weekend enjoy the rest of this beautiful weather.

Until Next Time.........................

"Whos Afraid of The Big Bad Wolf"

Whats going on people. Ya boy X is stressing. My dumb ass sister has once again managed to turn my household into disaray yet AGAIN. She is starting to get under my skin AGAIN...I try to make excuses for her. I try to give her opportunitys to grow as a woman but she just doesnt get it. I swear I think she slow. How much can a person take before you blast they ass to smitherines. I keep my mom and dad off her back so they dont sweat her about shit. I mean she has it good, she don't have to pay rent, pay for food, pay a bill, the bitch don't gotta do nothing. All she has to do is go to school and take care of my nephew. She is so dickmatized by this older dude thats scared to come to our house cause me & my dad are going to ice grill him, but so the fuck what ,how you 27yrs old tryna talk to a 19yr old anyway, but thats a different story. So check this.....

I came home around 11:30 pm...just came from shawn house, my brother like you know ya sister not home yet rite. I go to her room to check and she not in there. I'm like well hopefully she will come walking in a few. I went upstairs talked on the phone and carried on the rest of my phone conversation I was having with this lil shorty and i mean short like 5'2 short lol but anyway. I didnt bother to go downstairs to see if my sister was home because my parents already sat down with her 3 weeks prior about her being out all day with the baby and not calling or letting anybody know if she is okay so. The sole purpose for her really staying with us is for the welfare of my nephew and of course her because she is his mother.

So my mom wakes me up due to over sleeping and almost late for work. I walked downstairs to greet her with a smile only to see her looking shit faceted and annoyed so I ask whats wrong and sure enough the reply was..you know your sister didnt come home last nite. My mouth dropped and I just stood there and listen to my mom go on an on about how she told her this and told her that and we just went thru this....you would think she got the hint after your father chewed her ass out last time for this. The baby bottles are in the frigde. I wonder did he eat. Come to find out she told my dad that she was going to one of her girlfriends house to chill and she would be back, only to find out her girlfriend called the house lookn for her ass. Thats when I got upset. Its not good to lie to my parents, its hell to pay especially when it comes to regaining trust. I have tried to be the mediator and cut her slack and let her adjust to her new enviornment but enough is enough. So today after work I have to prepare myself for this long drawn out conversation. Im going to hate to do this ,but I gotta let her have it 4real this time because you will not give me your ass to kiss. We took you in, clothed you, fed you and gave you money and you cant even follow simple rules....just becasuse she is 19 with a baby doesnt make her grown.

I'm getting annoyed typing this shit right now. What should I do people?, because obviously this girl dosen't believe shit stink....Whos Afraid of the big bad wolf?...because obviously this chick isnt.....!

My dad always told me if you wanna stay out late and be grown and not let anybody know were you at...DONT COME HOME, TAKE YO ASS BACK TO WERE YOU CAME FROM AND I'LL SEE YOU TOMOR. I really hope she gets her act together before its too late.



Until next time.......

"Can You Keep A Secret"

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

I'm faced with these issues and its hard for me to process them at times.
Why am I an outlet for people? Everybody just feels the need to tell me their business
Whether good or bad. I don't think I can handle the shit that comes my way.
I view people differently then others. I know deep dark secrets, I know what lies beaneth.
I wish I didnt know what I know. I wish I was in the dark like everybody else.
My heart and soul can't take it anymore. I feel like sometimes Im going to blow.
I don't want to be apart of the problem. I wanna be a part of the solution.
I'm not doing any good by harboring these secrets. Its eating me up inside.
At nite I cry. Asking GOD why? Sometimes you shouldnt go searching. I guess Its better to not know
Over time I'll get over it ,but it still remains that I know, to much and Im ashamed.
I value trust but I also value honesty.

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

These things that run through threw my mind. I wish I could go back and time.
I wish I could erase things from my mind. I wish I could just wave that magic wand.
I know what I know and I have to accept it. I was vowed to secretecy.
The saying goes whats done in the dark will come to the light. Im not ready to come out of hiding.
I like being in the dark were the light is dim. Im like a fuse ready to go out. Sometimes I feel used. I think I should start charging for my services. Shit I feel my time is worth it.
When theres nobody to turn too im always your go to. I try to keep a straight face.
I do my damnest to give advice. I try my hardest to not put up a fight. I said at nite I cry.
Asking GOD why? Sometimes you shouldn't go searching. I guess its better to not know. Overtime I'll get over it, but it still remains that I know, to much and im ashamed. I value trust but I also value honesty.

Can I trust you?
Can you keep things to yourself?
No matter what it is?
Would you ever betray my trust?

Can you keep a secret?


Until till next time..............

X

"Week/Weekend Wrap-up"

Hey people. Hows it going. Ya boy X just checking in to see whats good. I told you I was gone post about something we all are lacking in our lives but I eighty-sixed that idea. I didnt feel like getting all emotional and shit on my blog. You will never get that satisfaction lol. I was gone blog about being annoyed, but I not gone even go that route. So here it goes......

I guess ill just start by saying that my boy shawn and I along with our fellow bloggers have something coming up thats in the works , So be on the look out. We are going to put alot into this project and we hope that you enjoy what we are going to bring to the table. So pull up a chair an be entertained. Shawn is trying to get me to step out the box and be more creative and change my image which I am alledgedly portrayed to be " A Self Hating Homo....hilfucknlarious.

This weekend a couple of friends of mine are going to FIRE ISLAND and its my first time going. I hope this shit is poppn cuz Im already mad I have to drive far as hell to get to the dam place then hop my black ass on a ferry to get on the dam island. (Mind you carrying a dam cooler, beach shit, etc) Oh did I mention pay for parking, gas and its $15 just to ride the dam ferry, Hell this shit betta be worth it. All I wanna see is naked bodys. I heard this beach is suppose to be nude. Y'all know I love going to nudes beaches, Nothing like being in my birthday suit LOL. I perfer a nude beach anyday then going to a regular beach. I feel so confined to my dam clothes.

I should have my new sidekick on monday, remember I was telling y'all about my lil ordeal with t-moile in my last post. Yeah they finally received the package and I was sure as hell on the phone with them at 7am talkn to a sales rep explaining my sob story for the fuckn umpteenth time lol. Its almost time to leave work (12:30pm). I figured I'd get my blog on before I dipped off and carry on the rest of my day. I just wanna thank all who read my blog and comment. It's much appreciated.



Have A Good Weekend

Until Next Time............

X