I just cant take it anymore. My family is upside down. I havent been blogging lately. My relationship is in turmoil. I haven't had sex in a while and I'm sexually frustrated. My father kicked my brother out again for the last time. He will be 18 january 19th. I feel like Im going to be the foster parent. My job is laying off employees, some who are very good friends of mines. Why doesnt my friend trust me? I'm not a grimme person and I would never break up a happy home. I don't know how to be happy in the situation im in. I need to hurry up and move already. Why does family drama always happen a week before thanksgiving. Why the fuck was it snowing yesterday. I'm annoyed that I have to put my truck in the shop yet again, I just spent 1500 2weeks ago on the piece of shit. Now my transmission is slipping. Why did JEEP make such a shitty as fucking car. Why am I deeply involved with this female and I have a love interest that lives in Oregon. I know some of yall are like. WTF!?!?!. I cant fuckn focus at work right now because I just...like...I had to put this shit in a blog. I always said I wouldnt blog If I didnt have shit to say. Well dammit I have a lot on my fuckn mind and Its more to all these stories but I cant share all due to certain people that read my blog. I dont want to start drama nor end friendships. Is it the fuckn weather....Its it the fuckn people I surround myself with...Why am I so fuckn stressed. Who invented LOVE and why doesnt it fuckn suck???? If you have a fuckn answer please share. I'm all fuckn ears got dammit. I need a drink. Yes I said a fuckn drink, despite it being 9:07 in the got dam morning. I just need to vent...I didnt ask to be born. I didnt ask to be gay...I didnt ask for none of this shit.....soooooooooooooooooo why!!!!!!
What the fuck is it.......
Whewww now I feel a lil better.....
Until next time people
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16 comments:
Your relationsip is in turmoil. You are deeply involved with a female. You have a love interest that lives in Oregon, and you don't know how to be happy in your situation?? Bruh, it sounds like you have a whole hell of a lot going on. You have a full plate! Maybe you need to trim some of the fat. Since you say you are in a relationship, all that extra needs to be scraped in the trash can!
We all have our family issues. Yea, it seems like the timing sucks, but is it every Thanksgiving yo bro gets kicked out? You did say AGAIN!
Do you have any type of behavior or history to make your friend doubt you?
You wonder why you're so stressed. The more simple life is, the less stress you have, but that's just my 2 cents.
I gotta agree It does sound like you got a lot going on at the moment. Try and getaway and come back to it when you have a clear head.
I feel you on this and the sad thing is that there seems to be NO relief or end in sight...
Well let me trying to give as much advise as I can, in a short amount of time as possible.
God only puts on you as much as you can handle.
All Families are upside down! LOL. You ain't special.
You already know the "solution" to solving your relationship.
You need to go have sex.
The actions of your brother are his own. You can't always be big brother and save him. Let him go so he can get it together.
17 or not.
You are not ready to be anyone's daddy. Brother yes, daddy NO!
Obama is working to help us all, time for plan c.
I do trust you, Im sorry.
You will never be happy in the situation your in.
Moving will change your life 360!
It wouldn't be Thanksgiving without it!
It's cold as hell outside, shouldn't it be snowing by now?
Sigh... new car?
Why? Because you felt that having both was ok. WTF!
Good! Blog Away!
I wish I could tell all to...
You need a hobby to be less stress, and I dont mean drinking. Maybe a non gay hobby will do?
And Last...
"We truly are the writers of the scripts of our lives, all we have to do is not be afraid of our own fears. We must live our lives for self, and not for others and not even for the fear of not knowing ourselves. It is the pursuit of love that binds us to finding each other and also to find who we are. We can choose to be promiscuous, unyielding, selfish, immature, jealous, insecure, and even ignorant... but it is GOD & LOVE that will bring us our happy ending. Choosing to be courageous is choosing to be Free." - ShawnQt
Wow...I can't even say anything.
*virtual hug*
Poor thing... some things we kinda shouldn't let stress us... like having a love interest miles away. Why is that stressing u?
Ur family stuff I can understand, and some of the other stuff. But it sounds like you need to put ur situations in perspective and try to work them out within urself so u can bring it together. take it easy buddy!
Awww, my blog brother... Everything will get better. It has too. Hopefully things will improve before the holiday. You know your blog family supports you. We are here whenever you need to vent with wide eyes!
Yikes! My best advice is to avoid the unlucky and unhappy. It's infectious. Do what you can do, but no more. You can't totally absolve these other parties involved. They share some burden, too.Whatever drama you're experiencing isn't all you're doing. That's all I got.
I think Shawn said it best...God never puts more on us than we can bear...when it feels like ur at ur wits end, things jus keep gettin worse, and u feel like ur about to explode..jus try to remember that He is in control...and that everything happens for a reason. I know it sounds easier said than done...but u know ur relationship with God.
Trust me I know how it feels when things jus don't go right and it jus seems like it's one bad thing after another.
The car situation...im not even gonna touch that..Re-Re is on her last leg now.
Most of these things we've talked about so I'm not gonna go into detail on here...jus know that I'm (and the rest of the crew are) here if u need to vent (which we all need to do now and then) or a drink lol
You probably need to clear some things off your plate. Drop anything that isn't productive.
You have to leard that until you have kids, you don't have a responsibilty to anyone but yourself.
Maybe you need a vacation.
I feel your pain man. Although I usually have no problems adding my 25 cents worth, particularly when it comes to being supportive. However, at this point I don't think I would have anything different to add to what has already been said.
What the fuck is going on wit ya man, have you given up on everything that once made you happy. Be advised that relationships come and go no need to stress out so check that shit off your list, now start clearing other shyte off your plate...Truck Try using Metro if you can and allow others to drive when and where you can, now I know you to pimp to take metro or whatever, but vehicle repairs in the name of fifteen hundred dollars will eat away at your weekly paycheck and you will lack in other areas so make a wise decison maybe find another car something a tad bit more dependable.
Why is it that brother and your father keep bumping heads? Your brother should not become your responsibility, but by all means look out for him when and where you can.
Female in Oregon? Okay you have always said "you were playing on both courts." Hey you playing on both teams. To much drama for your boi, but get yours.
I agree with one of the other blogers whom suggested that maybe you need to get away for a minute. I know what you mean about the shyte and drama the family stirs up right before the holidays,my cuzin is ringing my phone right now... voice mail!
Check this out man you have a good Thanksgiving and take the opportunity to count the many things you have to be thankful for, let no man put you assunder.
Hopefully this weekend is where you take the time to really see what's going on. Then cut what you think needs to go.
PREACH, TDRT!!!!
It was 9:07 in the fucking morning, not the damn morning...geez.
I don't know what to fucking play, but I love the constant use of the word fucking as an adjective. It means I get to use it in my comments.
I know this is fucking useless, but I just had to fucking say it. LOL. I hope everything works out for you brother. No fucking joke.
why is it that you feel better? you wont truly feel better until you decide to make some choices and take charge of what you really want. you know this already! maybe i will slap you with the truth in a text message!
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