Monday, February 23, 2009

Where Should I Start?

Let see shall we ...ummmm lately I have just been stressing man. Seriously you all know from my previous post that I sum times struggle with my sexuality but now the shit has just come full circle. Lately the female I have been talking to is starting to show me more and more affection and Im starting get more and more annoyed. lol I mean I really get upset to the point that I dont wanna be bothered. Its bad enough she calls me at work at least 2xs a day then wants to chill after work and that takes away from talking to my boyfriend when I get home because me and her wind up chilln till like 11 or 12am. I know trying to juggle the 2 is wrong but I have a good ass dude that understands my situation and allows me too carry on this way. I know some of yall are reading this post like WTF..Yes my dude knows I talk to ol gurl and was willing to take on the obstacle when he met me. I have been trying to slowly break it off with her for about 2 weeks now but the last convo I had with her telln her we should just be friends..Shorty told me I should rethink my answer...What is a man to do any advice for a brother???

Now on to my boyfriend...lately we havent been seeing eye to eye...I dont see him and he doesnt see me. We have been starting to question our love for each other. His love hasn't changed but lately I have been giving him doubt mine has. I'm trying to hold on to what little we have and make it work. He's the perfect dude, the most understanding person you could ever come to know. Its just lately I haven't been communicating with him...He feels like I leave him in the dark about stuff..I dont mean to do it on purpose...ughhhh nobody said relationships were easy...I guess ill take the blame for this one..sighhh

Moving on WHY can't I be happy...I tend to wanna be misserable sometimes or want a lot of drama to go on in my life....I know its crazy right???!! but alot of the situations that are occuring in my life right now, my dumb ass could of avoided the moment they arrised...I have been listening to Jazmine Sullivan lately and that chick can write. Lions,Tigers and Bears is speaking to a nigga werd up...

Next...I plan on moving out in June..good rite??? NOT. the catch is me and my cousin made plans to move in with each other a while ago..My cousin is you can say out to my family..but he has never admited it to certain people...I know when I tell my parents that im moving in with him Its going to raise some eyebrows...Im preping myself for the speech that im going to receive. The who,what,when,why and how questions. Im scared of being accepted by my parents..I still have time to back out of the situation to save face..My friends tell me all the time that onces you get out on your own and start paying your own bills that all that changes and you tend to not care about what people think. I hope that applies to me. Im startn to lean more towards dudes anyway...but until I cross that bridge ill just stick to the norm.

I have a question people....answer truthfully. I know I have male and female readers.

Do you trust your lover/wife/husband/significant other? Whether yes or no what makes him or her trust/untrustworthy?

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Whats the 411?


What It do blogg family....I know a nigga has been away for a minute. Trust me ya boy has been thru some shit and is experiencing some shit. I have been commenting on some of y'alls blogs..hopefully today I can play catch-up..ATL was kewl but I would never do it again..I have never seen so many drag queens in 1 mall (Lenox Mall). Im sorry ATL dudes..I see why the DL 1's stay in hiding and are hard to find cuz the shit you see walking around is so fuckn obvious lol and a hot ass mess..Shot out to Norris. I see you punk. I will be updating you guys on my life thus far....Some changes and some shit that is still ongoing. I'm trying to develope a new style of writing. Y'all know I like to curse, so that wont change much lol but I will be writing more meaningful post so you guys can better understand my point of views and how a nigga feel from day to day. Ya dig.

Happy Valentines Day, Congrats Mr Obama (I can't wait to see my new paycheck LOL).

Go pick up the new Bobby V CD..FIREEEE

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Atlanta here I come....

Hey bloggers..Happy Friday...

Right now im packn my clothes right now, im tired and i wanna go to sleep. Im going to Atlanta today, my flight leaves at 1:29pm..Me and a couple of my friends are on the same flight this should be interesting. This is my first time going to an out of state gay event and im scared as hell lol...Im told ATL is the place to be this MLK weekend so ima give it a try. I told my mom I was going to DC, im shook right now due to that dam plane crashing into the hudson river. The last thing I wanna do is be on a plane and crash an have my parents thinking im somewhere else and im not. Ill try to take pics. I heard EVE is suppose to be performing and we suppose to see Notorious today. Im getting excited as I type. Pray for me yall.

Ill holla..for those of you in the atlanta area..hit the kid up xavion20@gmail.com

Please say a lil prayer for my boy "Q". he has been missing for over a week now. The way things are looking we dont think hes still with us. Live,Love, Laugh and No Regrets. Life is too short.

X

Friday, January 2, 2009

Happy New Year,New Beginnings and Happy Endings



Hey blogger family, Yall just dont know how bad i been wanting to blog. I just havent felt like typing shit on this dam labtop lol. It be having its moments. Well first let me say Happy Mothefuckn New Years..and Merry Belated Christmas LMAO..

I spent christmas with my family and friends...I lost my keys on Christmas Eve...I've been on vacation from work damn near the whole month of december, I go back Monday 1/5/09...i'm actually excited, we all know that changes once 2hrs go by and u start wishing u were still in the dam bed.

New Years Eve was a blast....I attended Mr Briggs party at a bangn ass Penthouse Loft in Long Island, shot out to Derrick for the invite. Shout out to my crew for the nite (Turek, Ty and Mike sexy ass). I'll post pics later when i get my copies...As usual I was drunk as hell lol.

I'll be attending MLK weekend in ATL within the next 2 weeks, all my down south folks make sure u show us some southern hospitality dammit.... I know Norris is too thru with me. I was suppose to get up with him last weekend/ New Years..Sorry buddy, ill make it up to ya.

I cut off alot of friends as of thursday and a nigga dont even feel bad, umm should I lol..nawwwwwwwwwwwwwww lmao...

Me and Oregon are doing fine...Me and ol gurl are still chilln etc...

So I say my blogger family HAPPY NEW YEAR, NEW BIGINNINGS AND HAPPY ENDINGS.

I'll be blogging more since my black ass will be back to work monday. I'm lazy sue me lmao

Happy Friday People....Until Next Time

Friday, December 12, 2008

Pick-Up Lines (Funnies)

If you ever used these. You should be shot LMAO.

1) Did you fart?
cuz you just blew me away.
 
2) Are yer parents retarded?
cuz ya sure are special.
 
3) My Love fer you is like diarrhea .
I can't hold it in.
 
4) Do you have a library card?
cuz I'd like to sign you out
 
5) Is there a mirror in yer pants?
cuz I can see myself in em.
 
6) If you was a tree & I was a Squirrel,
I'd store my nuts in yer hole.
 
7) You might not be the best lookin girl here,
but beauty's only a light switch away.
 
8) I know I'm not no Fred Flintstone,
but I bet I can make yer bed-rock.
 
9) Yer eyes are as blue as window cleaner.
 
10) If yer gunna regret this in the mornin,
we kin sleep til afternoon.
 
AND.. the best for last!
 
11) Yer face reminds me of a wrench,
every time I think of it, my nuts tighten up



Well...I'm going to my company Christmas Party today at 12:30pm..Dont ask why its at 12:30..It just is dammit.., but its from 12:30 till 6pm. All I know is I'll be sipn on free drinks and eating a full course meal. I think ima have the salmon this year, I always eat the chicken. I think I'm going to stay my black ass in the house this weekend, Wait what am I talking about me shawn and Mark hitting up Ikea saturday morning...EARLY. So much for trying to sleep in lol


Happy Friday peopleeeee

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Ask Me Anything (Answers)

Happy Friday.................Here we go. I answered the questions in order.

Jerzee Reality:

Wuts ur ultimate fantasy? a dude and a female at the same time and watch him eat her pussy and her suckn his dick and then bang both of them out and nut on both they lips

Wuts the most romantic thing u've done, wanted to do, and/or have done to u? Feed somebody breakfast in bed.

Who do u wanna slap the shit out of at work lol? this chinese bitch in the cubicle next to me, she slurpn the hell out this dam tea she drinkn

Where do u wanna b in let's say....ummm 5 years from now? down south in my own house enjoyn life


Shawnqt:

1) What quality would you want out of each of your friends for yourself? Shawns creativity, Omar J. sense of humor, Omar R. vocabulary

2) What really is the relationship like with you and your father? its weak as hell and i dont like him and he needs to stop tryn 2 b my new best friend, like shit is all couchee crunch...no sir

3) If you wanted a new hobby, what would it be? Volunteer work

4) What habits do you think you stopped doing that u had a year ago? stoped being a whore and trying to fuck everthing that catches my eye.

5) What do u think is the gayest thing you have done? Went to support a former friend in becoming Mr Gay New Jersey...(i was scared as hell)LOL

6) After seeing me in Drag, did it change your view on it a little bit? Nah I loved u the same...it really looked like a costume...and it was fuckn hilarious.

7) Do you think your just as sexual as you was a year ago? nah i wish ..cuz i havent had sex in a while and i need sex..im so fuckn sick of xtube and nubian101..my fuckn hand gone fall off.

8) What is the first thing ur going to do with ur new comp?
webcam with......
9) Do you really think u will be a good boyfriend? Why? yes i do feel i would be/am...i feel i have all the qualitys that a male or female would want..

10) Name 3 pet peeves!...1. people that dont pick up there feet. 2. people that pop there gum. 3. people that talk over me

Nobody not Really:

If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? being gay...sorry..its stressful

Acoustic Soul:

1) What is your most favorite Janet Jackson CD? Damita Jo

2) What are your 5 most favorite songs of ALL TIME? PYT- micheal jackson, Cant you see - Total, If You love me - Brownstone, Juicy - Biggie, Be With Out You (My Life album)- MJB

5) Changing Faces or Kut Klose? Changing Faces

6) Justin Timberlake or Robin Thicke? Robin Thicke

7) What's your favorite TV show and why? Law & Order (SVU and the Original)....I love crime dramas.

8) Why do you blog? i blog to vent and i like sharing my issues and knowning there are others like me that go thru the same thing.

9) Boxers or Briefs? Ummmm i freeball just about 24/7...maybe thats why my dick is always hard at work, but if and when i have to were them ...I wear boxer briefs (H & M perferably)

10) If you found $10,000, would you tithe 10%? Didnt understand this question! Clarify please lol sorry

Thegatekeeper:

WHAT IS YOUR DEEPEST FEAR? My parents finding out about my sexuality and being disowned by my sibilings.

Jersey Brotha:

1. What do you consider your greatest accomplishment thus far in your life? Making it this far without a college degree in a career I love...

2. Do you have any regrets? If so, what? Honestly Ikinda dont have any regrets..things in life happen for a reson, you just have to roll with the punches.

3. What are some things you like about yourself, and what are some things you dislike about yourself? I dont know what i like about myself..honestly..that was sucha conceeded question lol...but i dont like that i dont know how to say NO to people im always willing to give.

Mr. Jones:

1) If there was a pill that would make you not like boys anymore, would you take it and would you give everything you own to pay for it? Yes I would and i'd give everything i owned for it..sorry its the truth

2) If you could afford any plastic surgery in the world, what would you have worked on? my stomache, I heard you could sculpt ur abs.

3) If you didn't live in Newark, where in the world would you live?I would live in California...and I dont live in newark lol...thats essex county i live in union county big difference lol

4) If you could be anything in the world, what would you be? My dream job was to work on Wall street trading stocks but the way the economy is right now...fuck that shit lol

5) When having your ass eaten, what makes you squirm? Lol when someone stimulates my ass muscle with there tounge in a certain motion.

6) Speaking of sex, what, in your opinion, is ur sexual 'thing' or best attribute? I would say my tounge..ive been told i can eat some good ass/pussy

7) If you had to watch one tv show for the rest of ur life, which show would it be?
Law & Order babbbbbyyyyy all the way...

8) If you had the opportunity to, would you do gay porn? Straight porn? I've actually recorded me and my shorty having sex before...I love porn lol and i would never do commercial gay porn...but i would do straight porn

9) Assuming you're into sports, what athlete would you do if you could? (If you aren't into sports, pick any celebrity.) Daunte Culpepper...OMG this man has a fuckn ass to die for...he got a dunk and its nice and yellow..id eat it all day long lol

10) When you're 50, do you see yourself with a man or a woman? Hopefully a woman and married..if not ill be alone...dont see myself in the life that long.

Rocafella07:

Ummmm...Whats the one thing you absolutly HAVE to do, before the year is over?? Make a trip to Oregon lol

Deonte'K:

If you could,what's the one thing you would change about yourself if there is anything? I wouldnt change anything really except my sexuality..but i guess thats what makes me who i am..

PRIMO:

What was your first sexual Experience Like with a guy? [Details?] Hmmm i was very uncomfortable and it was unwanted....enough said if you want to know the full story email me pimpn...

Fuzzy:

ummm what makes you happy as a man? i mean really, really happy? I love waking up in the morning as a man of color and lookn GQ and working a nine to five and doing what i do best. which is giving 100%

what do you want out of life? Love, Privacy, Money, Happiness

if you tell someone something in confidence, and they tell someone else, breaking that confidentiality and trust, what would you do? I would confront the person and have a civil conversation.

how many friends do you have? think carefully of what a friend actually is! no names required! I have 7 true friends that I hold dear to me and they know who they are no names required..some blog, some dont

in a few previous posts you declared your bisexuality. if you're dating a dude, would you ever move in as his longterm domestic partner/lover/husband? Thats a big step..im on the fence with this question...but for now NO giving the whole closet case aspect of it..that would not fly with my family lol

lastly, if you could be carefree, with no other responsibilities or consequences, for 1 day, name one thing you would do that you might of normally chose not do. Go out with a dude to a local movie theatre or restaurant and not care who sees...I tend to travel far when it comes to takn a dude out. like out of state lol NYC perferably...i know ..sad rite lol

Q:

Are you a pleaser, or do you like to be pleased...? Man i like it all..Im a freak and i let that be known from the door lol

MIley Cyrus or the cast of High School Musical...? ummmmm niether. lol Maybe Miley


Thanks for the questions and sorry I took long to answer. I'm on vacation chillin. I hope you all had a good thanksgiving and be safe traveling this weekend....Can I just say..I am ADDICTED TO XTUBE...Does anybody own a FLESHLIGHT..OMG lol

Until Next Time........................

Throwback....Two Tons of Fun...I know yall know this song...This is my jam...I need a drink and a 2 step right now lol

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

"Dirty Brother/Ask Me Anything/ Happy Thanksgiving"

Whats good my fellow bloggers...Let me start off by saying. I have really missed you guys, okay moving on LOL. Let me tell you how my brother is soooooo fuckn dirty. This lil nigga is going to get a rash werd up. He think its cute not to take a fuckn shower. It is NO dam reason for a dam 12 year old almost 13 to not wanna take a fuckn shower. Thats sooooo dam nasty. I mean okay, last thursday, as I walked into the bathroom he was coming out and I happened to get a whiff of some GOT DAM. I'm like Aaron.... When the last time you took a shower? He laughed. My mom says from out her bedroom, he aint take a shower since sunday....Im saying to myself ...bitch you know he aint take a shower and you and you aint make him take one. Ughhhhh..I asked him do you wanna be the stinky boy in school people pick on? He laughed some more. I'm like okay, I got things to do and dismissed the whole fuckn thing. Sunday comes this nasty fucker still aint take no dam shower. My mom finally makes him take one. Get this.... he tries to sike her out by sitting in the basement hoping she would for get. I'm saying to myself once again, if I was you my nuts would be soooo sour and full of funk...ewwwwl I know you done did the #2 a few times since sunday. I know yo booty gots to be itching....Does anybody else have/had this problem with there kids or younger siblings/ older siblings LMAO???






I always wanted to do this. Acoustic Soul told me I should do an ask me anything post. I admit I'm still a lil skeptic, but I will do my best to answer the questions that I am presented with as much as I can. SO ASK AWAY........


Happy Thanksgiving People.....and be safe