"Shits Fucked Up"

Its Sunday, don't really have that much to say. I was literally tryna figure out what the hell my next post was gone be so. I'm jus gonna say random shit. Here it goes. lol

Okay my sister is 18 & pregnant. (how da hell this dis bitch have a baby b4 me?) oops I forgot I like boys. Anywho the baby father is 31yrs old. YES 31 lol. In jail. your typical local street pharmacist.

Shits fucked up.

Then u got my lil brother (16).ughh, I'm chilln, drunk as hell drivn to Dominos mind u.(gotta feed my liquor) Called me last week soundn all scared an shit saying " yo I need a real big favor". I'm like "wat?". this lil nigga said. "I need u to take me to the clinic. I think this bitch burnt me." me being the fucked up brother I am, I bust the fuck out laughn. I know that was wrong but atleast I agreed to take em.

Shits fucked up.

Okay. I got this friend rite. If he knew I was writn this shit he would have a dam fit. alriite lol. excuse me from laughn this shit is hilarious. We went to the bar last nite. I had a few drinks. so the bouncer let me sleep in the back. I woke up saw I had missed phone calls.(it was my boy) I went outside. I saw him leaning on my car. I'm like wats wrong. he like "I kinda shitted on myself." All I could say was ewl u nasty bitch. I went to my trunk got a towel to put on my seat. Cuz this shitty bitch was not sitn on my dam seat. I got in the car he like "roll the window down. don't turn on the air." Then all assuden it hit me. " the smell of shit". I'm like how the fuck u shit on yaself. lol ,his reply was "I jus couldn't hold it." lol

Shits fucked up (in his case, shited on lol)

This girl I know. We mad kewl atleast I thought. Im at the movies bout to go see "Superbad" an I see dis bitch. she called me over. I look in the car. I see this dam big ass man, atleast I thought it was a man. I'm like ooo this bitch been dicking & dyking lol. She coulda told me. Coulda got a 3sum or something. lol

Shits fucked up.

Now I know yall got some fucked up comments.

Until next time........

"Psychotic Bitch"

Y'all wont believe what the fuck just happened to me. Im chilln at my shorty house in newark, We all laid up watchn tv. Then all assuden my phone rings, its my crazy ass ex (Who you all know as princess). Bitch called 2 times then finally I decided to answer my phone on the 3rd. I said "Hello", Crazy bitch was like "I see you can bring ya ass to tommy(my shorty cuzn) house ,but you cant fuckn come see me. You a fucked up nigga", I let them talk for like 5mins straight. None stop cursing at me until finally "Crazy bitch" realized I wasnt listening an hung the fuck up. So the story continues.

Im sitting here like oh god round 2. Cuz this bitch tried this shit months earlier tryna "out" me an shit to my fam. So My shorty like want me to go box they ass? Im like nah Its kewl. So by then I realize "Crazy Ass" know my car is parked outside , saw it now wanna start going phsyco an shit. So something tells me to take my black ass outside. I see the landlord outside smokn a cigarette. I ask "Excuse me did you see anybody messing with that truck right there?, she responds, "Yea I saw somebody pull up next to it, get out open they trunk with some girl an the they got in the car pulled rite here in front of the house an then sped off." So now im like aww shit this bitch done fucked up my car. I go down the street to inspect my car looking for dents, scratches, sugar in the gas tank etc. No signs of nothing. So then I look to my right I see a black car riding down the block with no headlights on. Can you believe this lil bitch tried to run me the fuck over. I jumped out of the way quickly. They sped off, Came back a 3rd time an put pictures we took back in November in the door of my car an sped off again. I ran over an snatched them off a, by now Im pissed, Im mad cuz I just got finish busting a nut with my shorty now I couldnt even fuckn enjoy it. I was stressed all over again. shit lol, So dis dumb bitch come back a 4th time, but this time parks directly across the street from the house, gets out an lean against his car. I was waiting for him to do something an my dude was too. I told my dude come in the house he was like nah Ima stay right here. I went into the house. My dude followed, Came back out 5mins later "Crazy Bitch" was gone. Im geting ready to leave Im apologizing for bring the drama over to yall house etc.

Im in the car now, mad ass hell. This lil bitch calls me again I let it go straight to the voicemail. This time, leaves me a voicemail saying. "You done fucked with the wrong bitch, Im sorry It had to end this way but so be it." I saying to myself what the fuck does that mean? On my way home I call my boy Jay got him laughn at my dumb ass. He was bout to take his tired ass to sleep so I hung up with him, Aite so im home now right? Im on the phone wit my boy mike by now. I get a text who else but the "crazy bitch" himself. Textn me "Cum outside". Im like FUCK, this bitch know were the fuck i live. Im running to the window falling over shit, hoping an praying this fag ass bitch aint outside my house. PPewwww safe not out there. Bitch had me scared. All I could imagine is his lil bitch ass making a scene at 10:30 at night an the neighbors come outside. I think I woulda went to jail tonight yall. I'm still siting here peeking out the dam window. An to think It started out as me just wanting to get a nut from some tight young ass. I learned my got dam lesson no more "LIL SCHOOL BOYS" for me. lol I can sit here an laugh about it now but the shit wasnt funny when it was happening (1hr 30mins ago)lol. Okay Im tired now I had to blog this before I went to sleep.

Until next time...........

"Friend or Associate"

Friend Or Associate?
People sometimes get the 2 confused. A friend calls just about everyday or other day. An associate calls/speaks maybe once a week if that. A friend gives u constructive criticism. An associate talks about all your flaws to everybody else but you. So I ask myself again Friend or Associate? The word "Best Friend" is used so loosely just like that four letter word "Love". What does it take for 1 to gain the title of being a best friend? Is it knowning one another for a long time, having the same quailitys an outlooks as each other, or u jus get along with each other so much no one compares to y'alls chemistry? What happens when u think someone is your friend an they're really not? They tolerate u for the time being. The moment u leave there sight ur a hoe, a slut, etc. An you call them your friend(s). Is it cuz u try so hard to be well liked that u do not see how much of a fool your making out of yourself. You disregard all the signs. I have a best friend we have this "associative" best friend relationship. I also have a group of friends(Shawn,Daniel,Omar,Jay,Mike,Greg,Brandon & etc) who probally would consider me an associate being that they have only known me for almost a year. I consider them good friends because they listen to me, give me good advice, make me feel comfortable, don't judge (so they say lol). Its like a role-reversal they are better friends then my "associative" best friend. "Yea I know its sad right?" With this all being said I wonder am I a "Friend or Associate"?

Until next time.........

"Reveal Urself"

Back again for a second time. Lately I been feeling like I'm having a idenity crisis. I dnt no whether I like dudes or if I like girls. I know I like something. Should I live the sterotypical lyfestyle that the average DL man lives. or should I jus not date or talk to people at all. I find myself constantlly struggln with this issue. I mean I love sex an all but. I haven't really had the urge to really be sexual . I mean my hand does me just fine. Despite my last post which was on random an I didn't really give to much thought in making dat decscion it was jus one of those I do give a fuck kinda things. I need HELP. I was so stressed at work last week thinkn if I told my mom about my secret life that I'd feel better as long as she didn't tell my dad. but no that would of jus opened up a can of worms. This secret is such a burden on me. If my dad wasn't such a homophobe mayb Id consider telln him but GUESS AGAIN. I'm not. Why is being gay/bisexual so wrong. Its a prefrence. Why does it matter what another person does in the privacy of there own home. We as a black community are so ignorant that we are so negative to our own people. It's 2007 get with the program. Times are changn , people have more of an openmind. but we have the few that are still living in the dark ages. Society has made me who I am today.forced me to wear this mask of shame. to hide in secretcy. Will I ever see the light of day?????. Until next time..........

The Beginning

I'm not here to bore you. I know you all would like to know what goes on in my mind, world, etc.
I have alot to tell. For some you might cant handle what I have to say. All my friends know Im a freak, Im a big ass flirt, I have a reputation for messing with friends and there friends. Im Sorry what can I say. If they wanna holla, Ima jump on it. Im here to give you a glimpse of my life in a 15min session. Let me see where should I begin, so much to say so little time.

Hmmmmm, Im currently in a relationship but, Im not sure. We been together for 2-3 Weeks now and Its feels like the same before we even made it offical. I dont see them they dont see me. The occasional phone call twice a day, Text messages here an there through the course of the day. Its kewl but, In between you have everybody else knowning im in a relationship still trying to get at me. Im try to fight off the urge, but I gave in. Last Wednesday my ex called me and asked me how I felt about a 3 some with somebody I meet through them months earlier I said werd Im down, (me being an ass).but at first I was 2nd guessing the whole thing. Im like X you in a relationship ur not single anymore. I winded up calling another one of my exs that my ex also knows proprositioning them to join in on the 3some. They was down too, so I said bet we gone pick you up from work. I let my ex know theres a 4th addition and who would be joing in on the action. I layed n my bed till 10pm my phone rings. my ex saying they outside. Im like aite im coming. Me being the freak I am. I wore my basketball shorts no underwear and a wifebeater ready to get into some action. I get into the car, We pick up my other ex from work, now we gotta drive all the way to piscataway to pick up the 4th person. Got that person now we tryna find a spot to get this shit poppn mind you its like almost 12am. A nigga gotta work in the morning. We finally find a lil rinky dink spot on 1 & 9. My ex paid for the room. We all sitting around smokn an chilln till im like fuck this we here to do this right so. I took off my clothes. Im standing ass naked so then everybody else follows my lead. Me an shorty layn down kissing an grinding for like 15mins. While I glanced over at the other 2 suckn each other off then they start fuckn rite next to me. I mean shorty was bangn they back in(they wasnt wasting no time!). I started to get brick. Shorty like wat else you wanna do Im like its wateva. Shorty like you wanna fuck me im like werd. So as I proceeded to get the lube and condom. Shorty starts suckn me off but im only getting semi hard. Im like "what the fuck this cant be happening" I think it was becuz i was so anxiuos to be inside shorty. So I turnt shorty over an started toungn that ass down tryna loosn it up. So i can get in with no problem. Shorty moaning in my ear still no real reaction by now im frustrated I lost the urge to fuck this nigga. So my boy (mind you my ex who has done bust like 2 nuts already to my none) takes over an them 2 start kissing and sucking each otha off. Im laid up in the corner mad as hell in the hotel room smokn. watchn these to mofos go at it. So then the shorty my ex was fuckn next to me says come on ima get you to fuck me. You gone get hard for me. (I dont do the big boys). I was totally turnt off but I let them suck me off. To my suprise my dick starts get hard. As soon as shorty saw that immediately jumped on my dick. Im laid out on the floor and shorty riding the fuck out my dick I swear shorty ass felt like a wet ass pussy. (I guess it was banged so good tonight shit was just wet for no reason.) I look on the bed who I see my exfuckn my other ex ( that nigga was shakn he couldnt take no dick by the look oif his face he was in pain) he jumpdup an ran to the bathroom. I guess he done had enough. Back to me Im beating this ass up I mean Im going strong right now then all a sudden I got theis feeling I wanted to nut. I never had nutted while fuckn ever. I yellled im bout to nut. I nutted all over shorty back ass an all. After that I was ready for a 2nd nut. I realized the time it was 3am I was mad but then again I had to nut again I laid on the floor we all watch each other nut one last time. When It was all said an done when I got home in my bed. All I could do is think about my baby, and why the fuck did I just do What I did. I couldnt take it back Whats done is done. Im learning to say no but sex is good who could resist. Especially when its more then one person (3some). Until then 15mins is up. an yes this really did happen. Im a work in progress dont judge what you dont understand. Im me, take me as I am or dont fuck wit a nigga

Until next time.......